a sleep I fell


FR a sleep I fell
FR J.R. Carpenter
Date de création
FR 2000
FR Anglais
Est une partie de
FR L'oeuvre est séparée en quatre parties, soit « a quote », « a theory », « a story » et « a word ». Chaque section présente un texte ou une image en lien avec la section, puis est divisée en sous-sections qui ouvrent un texte écrit par l'autrice ou des citations qu'elle a choisies (dans la section « a quote »). Le lecteur navigue dans l'oeuvre en visitant les différentes sections et sous-sections souvent composées de textes et d'images.
FR « My work has been the result of my overwhelming need to know. When I was very young, I believed that one could know everything. I insisted that every thought could be remembered and called upon again, that every experience was one's own to keep and hold, that every image witnessed, real or imagined was stored forever in what I believed to be the most infallible archive, the mind. I saw as my goal in life, the accumulation of knowledge. Never would it weigh me down. Rather, it would build upon itself to form some kind of fortress - a sand-bag-dike against a wild river, flooding and ignorant, a volcanic island erupting in an otherwise endless and unknown sea. That knowledge would save me, I had no doubt. Even when I started to find myself forgetting things - the odd name, fact, street or face - well who could blame me? I started taking notes. I collected and saved things to remind me of what I thought I knew. Ticket stubs, postcards, letters, stories and dreams. Evidence. Art. Proof of the existence of meaning in the world.

Lately I feel as if I am slipping. I feel like I don't know what's going on around me, like I don't know anything any more. I don't know if falling is the best metaphor to describe this sensation, but I hope it captures some of the loss of control I feel and maybe some of the grace. I am vaguely fearful of the ease with which I now sometimes suddenly surrender. I, who had once clung to information, reveled in every insight, pounced on each new observation - I forget things often now. I lose things. I walk right by people on the street. And in the relative scheme of things, this state of affairs seems to me to be liberating. Some days I float through, some days I fall.

When we fall asleep we are often more brilliant for our lack of consciousness. We are free to make associations. Things fall into place. And when we awake again? In the world of bodies and objects, gravity and literature, history and higher mathematics - morsels of wisdom crash about in my head. I stumble upon the insight of others and I am grateful. My own thoughts run rough shod. I let them go and come and go again.

In my work I have referred often to the vitrine, the collection, the archive. As I continue to work with the web, new models arise: files, folders, directories, menus, discs, databases. Information is everywhere. It mutates and disappears all the time. The path from point A to point B can be round about. Guesswork is de rigor. We are so bombarded with information that it might be as impossible to know nothing as it is to know everything. Even in sleep we have an uncanny wisdom. Even a free-fall has a trajectory.

Perhaps the pursuit of the knowledge of everything continues, perhaps everything has changed. »
Modalité procédurale
FR Savoir
Principe d'organisation
Extraits de l'œuvre
FR « The earth moves one ten-thousandth of a millionth of a millionth of a millimeter to meet the falling of a book. »
Personne ayant créé la fiche
FR Aude Meunier-Rochon